Sunday, May 30, 2010

I'm in (L)!

Oh my gosh.
Out of a sudden, I am so so truly madly in love with him.
I never felt this way before!
Hmm, nope. Actually I did but it was ages ago.
Duh, who cares? As long as I love my feeling now.
Yeah, I know it couldn't come true, so what?
I still can dream about it.
Well, girls love to dream, don't we? XD
Awwwww... <3


Friday, May 21, 2010

Tell Me Goodbye.

Yes, he is going to tell me goodbye. Isn't he cruel? Telling me goodbye at this time?
Ah, fine. Whatever. I don't care. I don't have a choice. I could not hold him back.
Cause I know, he will be coming back to me soon. But when?
I don't know but I know he will not be leaving long, I guess.
You know I will miss you. You are my everything!
You know I could hardly survive without you by my side.
In this time of being alone, I will abandon my blog for sometime.
Cause without you, I have no inspiration or mood or whatsoever to blog.
It is just so hard to tell you goodbye.
Don't you think it's hard to tell me goodbye too, my dear?
Days will surely be lonely without you.
So, please, don't leave me so long.
I could not afford to lose you.
I will miss you. :(

p/s : Did I mention who he is? .... I think I didn't. Oppps.


Monday, May 17, 2010

The edge and the ground

Here I am, standing on an edge of the mountain.
Looking down from here, I am so far from the ground.
I wonder how long it takes for me to reach the ground.
One step forward, I will fall and reach the ground in seconds.
One step backward, I will find my path down the mountain which will take hours or days.
But I am not going to take one step forward or backward.
Cause this is where I am now.
I want to take this time to enjoy the view and the refreshing winds on the edge of the mountain,
to see the creation of God which is so wonderful.
These wonderful creations will not remain here forever.
It is just like the wonderful and happy moments will not remain forever, too.
That is why I am learning to appreciate.

And it's time to get to the ground.
Which way will I take?


Sunday, May 16, 2010

The Fact

I never ever thought that it will happen to me.
I did feel a little bad when I got to know that it happened to others.
But I never felt this bad when I knew that it happened to me.

I did not want my feelings to affect others.
In another words, I dislike it.
Therefore I smiled, pretending nothing happened.
And I tried to get myself busy doing things, talking with others,
so that I could have my mind out of that particular matters.
It was tiring, but I could do nothing about it.

Somehow, when the dark arrived, they came back to my mind.
I lied on the bed, looking at the cloudy sky, wondering where were the stars,
and also with the thoughts running in my mind.
My eyes were too heavy till I did not know when did they closed.

And there goes my nightmare again.


The sun shines and strikes my eyes.
It is time for me to wake up again and say goodbye to my dreamland.
There goes the day time after having breakfast and lunch, maybe a short nap after that.
Then, it is time for dinner and the dark to arrive.
Another brand new day just ended like that.
Here am I lying on the bed, looking at the cloudy sky through the window,
wondering where are the stars and with the thoughts running in my mind, again.

And I guess... it is time to accept the fact,
the fact that will remain secret... for now.


Saturday, May 15, 2010

Consecutive nightmares

I received a bad news.

The guy chased us all day long. It was scary. He wanted to kill us. Maybe that's the result of watching when a stranger calls alone in the middle of the night.

I woke up. And I closed back my tiring eyes.

And there comes another nightmare. Not nightmare, it was already day time, 'daymare'. I could remember what happened in that dream, till just now.

It was kind of horrible and it was the first time.

Was this because of the bad news that I've received?
I don't know. I still couldn't accept the fact.

But life still has to go on.
I am learning to appreciate each and everything that I have now, especially the ones that I love and those who seems not really important to me, but they are.
........ because, anything can happen in the blink of an eye. We never know.

p/s : How I hope that was just another nightmare I had.