Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Problemo me

Sometimes, I really don't feel like giving a hoot on what's happening. I will have the other side of thoughts, thinking what am I going to do next, blah blah blah. But they lived like there's nothing happened and I was wondering what the heck was happening just now. I did not know what and how to response. All I can do is to hide in the box and stay there until I can see the lights. And sometimes, I'm wondering whether the problem is in me. Maybe, it is.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

7 Years of Love.

We met for 7 years.
No one knew we would say goodbye like this so easily.
However we still separated.
With the memories we built for a long time... now gone.
How did we, at such a young age meet each other? I don't even remember how.
It's difficult for us to handle the maps of our changing selves.
They said saying goodbyes are painful but I didn't even have time to feel that.
I just thought this is the way staying composed... But i cried.
Time passed and it gave me a simple yearning, different from what my mind was seeing.
At first friends, then next as lovers.
We said we'd stay as friends even if we separated.

During those 3 years spent alone, we contacted each other sometimes.
Even if I met someone else again, even I loved again,
whenever I was sad I would call you... Without a word, just tears falling.
'You have to meet a good person', I thought in my heart without any words.
I asked if you still liked me.
Without any thoughts hoping you would say it back... I know.

We had the most pure love.
Back then we thought that kind of love couldn't be done again, so we saved it in our memories.
Often, I feel a cold feeling from you.
But now I know you cannot ask anything.
'I'm getting married'...... is what you said to me.
After that, for a long time I was speechless.
Then I cried... they were your last words to me.
For the only words I wanted to hear...

was that you loved me.