Tuesday, August 28, 2012

Trust

" I thought I was dreaming, when I hear the confession. I was dumbfounded, my brain was not working, I did not know how should I feel, how should I react. Before that, I guess I thoroughly know what happened but I was telling myself, no, that should not be happening, that would not happen. I keep denying things that came to my mind, until I know the truth of everything.

I was calm, did not have any big reactions. It was like I had expected that I would be told something like that. Oh well, it was not a good thing. Why would I think about her this way? I should have trusted her, but wait, I had been trusting her all these while, from the beginning of time until now. Why would she treat me this way? Why did she do that? Did she even think of me? "

Michael's mind was full of why, why and why. He could not accept the fact and he did not know what to do. He sat there, looking at her tearing face, his heart ached, it hurt a lot. How he hoped it was just a bad dream he had, how he hoped she was just lying to him, cause the truth really hurts.

What is left now is the broken promises, broken trusts, broken hearts and not forgetting, a scar in his heart. 

" It was not your fault, it was mine for believing every word you said, " Michael told her calmly, with tears in his eyes. 


Trust is like a mirror, once it is broken, you can never look at it the same again.

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Thursday, June 14, 2012

Be contented

I don't know when I had this thought in my mind that I have to change my blog title after my 21st birthday. And yea, the day has come, like finally, and this is it. There is no more daddy's little girl now, but of course, I am still my daddy's girl. :)

Life has not been easy for me. But I know I am not the only one who feel that way. Everyone has their own problems. It has been half a year of hectic time that I am going through. Thanks to those who contributed to my hard times. Without you, I would not learn how to be wiser and smarter in my life. And from all the things I have gone through, I started to realize something very important - trustworthiness. I got to learn that most of the people around me are not trustworthy, even if they are your closest ones. They gave you promises, but they disappoint you over and over again, without having a full stop. I have totally understand the feeling of disappointment where people don't mean what they said and don't keep their promises. The undone things by some people still haunting me day and night, even when I am sleeping I dream of them. Those people never think of how the others feel and also the consequences after getting what they want. Return the things that is not owned by you, son and please grow up. 

Don't get me wrong, of course, there are still people that can be trusted, some of them are not even the close ones. I thank God for these wonderful people. I don't want to be greedy, one or two people around me that are trustworthy is already enough for me. 

Besides, I have learned another thing too - be contented. Some people just cannot get enough of what they have, ie the happiness, love, family, friends, and etc. And some people just like to make themselves sad, disappointed by comparing themselves to the others which they think is better than them a lot. Why do we like to compare? Cause we just don't have enough. Is it true? You are envious of what the others have, envious of their life, etc. But hey, why you want to feel envy about other's people life? Don't you know you are also having a wonderful and lovely life? Stop comparing and be contented. At the very moment you can do that, you are definitely going into a more beautiful life. And do not forget, thank God for everything that you have or whatever that you have gone through, no matter it is good or bad. :)

Hmmm.. Many things are waiting for me to be done. Yea, I mean a lot, but I am still slacking almost every day and minute. Gahh, this is so bad. Exam is less than a month away. Everything passes so fast this year. Time really flies! Yea, I have been saying this all the time. I hope I go through everything smoothly. *fingers crossed* Things will be different after the exam, I am entering into another stage of life, experiencing different things in a new environment. Whether I hope that day will come fast or not, the day will still come. I am not waiting eagerly, nor hoping that the day will come later. I just want to enjoy each and every single moment of my life, right now. :)

I think that is all for now.


Cheers! 


xoxo



Thursday, February 9, 2012

Windy night

Woooh.. It is already the 40th day in 2012! I still remember the time when I posted my last post. It was just like last week. Time is speeding. And yeah, I am talking about how fast time pass again, like all the other posts. Hah!

The celebration of chinese new year had come to an end, which means that holidays are over for me. Time to get down to serious business, but I am still slacking here and there, I mean everywhere. Ahhh, this is a very bad habit of mine and it is so hard to change.

Chinese new year was earlier this year compared to previous years. Had a peaceful celebration at home. Not much of celebrating, but more on eating and eating, and also eating. Anyhow, for me, chinese new year is just a time of reunion for the big family.

Hmm.. I'm running out of words. Maybe I'm not that type of person that will write everything about our daily life in a blog post. Or you can call me a boring person. I could not afford to share each and everything that happens, some things are meant for us to keep to ourselves.

Time to sleep. It is very windy tonight. I don't know why it makes me feel like, deja vu. Anyway, I love the wind. Have a goodnight sleep, everyone. :)


p.s : How I wish I can see everything clearly as soon as I wake up one day.



xOXo